A little skird....

Okay, so as this D-day...May 4th...sneaks up on me, I keep getting more and more scared or nervous or something. Neck surgery, for real?! And really, it's not the surgery I'm so scared about it's the after effects. Am I going to be able to go back to doing the things I love, especially volleyball. If I can't play volleyball, I'm going to be pissed!!!!! Am I going to be able to lift Ashton up and give him big hugs. Am I going to be able to kick the crap out of my best friends again?! Haha! So, I'm trying to pack in all the things I can before this day comes as I'm not sure when I will be able to do it again. I know I can't drive for 6 - 8 weeks, or do pretty much anything for the first week. And, I'm going have a nice scar on the front of my neck...AWESOME! Or not! The plus side, it's not going to get worse and could even minimize my pain dramatically. That would be just awesome if it did! I'm sick of living in pain, it sucks!! So, if you would keep my sugeons in your prayers so they don't fuck it up, that would be just awesome. TTFN!

Spring is in the air...no I think it's love... ;-)

Okay, so not really love...because I am definitely not in love. But, I am in "like." Is there such a thing, I don't know it just sounded good! So, those who read already know that I have a boy. He's sweet and caring and religious and loves kids...a bit conservative, actually quite a bit more conservative than me...but we will work on that! It really feels great to have someone who you can share with and someone who likes you for who you are not what you can do for them or what you look like. It sucks he's four hours away, but at least it's not 10 right...or even 5?! If it's meant to be things will just magically work themselves out, okay now I know they will need work, but it will happen. If it's not meant to be, then it's just not. Well, just wanted to write a little blurb about my man. P.S. He's a great kisser...a BONUS! Oh....and his head is shaved....BONUS POINT #2!!!