No, I really did have a great week, just feeling a little down today. Maybe it's the crappy weather or maybe it's not.
I talked to my dad last night about spending the day with him tomorrow. He sounded excited about the visit, but he did not sound well. Okay, did you follow that? I guess I am just sad that he did not sound well and it's even harder having no clue what he's going through right now. I get scared everytime I get a phone call at an odd time from my mom, thinking for just a few seconds this phone call may be about my dad. I get scared everytime I hang-up the phone with him wondering if that just might be the last time I speak to him. And I'm even more scared that I may have to walk down the isle at my father's funeral knowing I was unable to fulfill his wishes of him walking me down the isle on my wedding day. It kills inside knowing that I just am not able to do that. I hurt for him, but even more I hurt for my future children who will never get the chance to know him.
I'm a Debbie Downer today, I guess. I hate this feeling and I hate more that I don't know how to get rid of it.
So please just take some time and say a little prayer for my "daddy-o". Pray for strength for him and pray that he is able to live happily for the rest of his days.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Monday, January 5, 2009
Maybe I should update more often!
HAPPY 2009 EVERYONE! I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and a very happy New Year! My Christmas break was wonderful. I was able to spend mucho time with my family and hang out with my friends, even with a few that have since college moved out of the state. I also had a fantastic New Years with an eclectic group of friends. We didn't fall asleep at 12:02, we were actually still in the bar believe it or not!
Side note...just got a call about playing sand volleyball on Sunday nights. Yay, another night of volleyball...SO EXCITED, CAN YOU TELL?!
Back to New Year's...we were actually still in the bar until about 1:30 p.m. WOW! We have just proven that we are not OLD, which by the way I feel as I am lately. I'm going to be freakin' 25 in July. That just can't be possible!
So New Year's Resolution...no it's not to diet, or work out or stop drinking soda. I am kind of excited about this one. I have resolved to just all around be better. I want to be better at my job, better at cleaning, better at money management, better at friendships, better at my relationship with God,better at being a sister/aunt/daughter/ granddaughter, etc. I'm not going to claim that I will be like the most awesome at all of these, but I do feel as though for the last year(s) I have been a little lacking in all of these areas. So, for 2009 (and beyond) I just want to be BETTER! Let me know how I am doing.
So, I got a new bed this Christmas, which would not have been possible without the help of my two very best friends Ryan and Dave. Let's give a shout out!They also helped, okay no...put the whole thing together for me and rearraged my room (as they do best) and hung all of my pictures/paintings. So, to them I owe a huge thank-you! I finally feel like it's a grown up room, instead of a poor/no extra money/right-out-of-college girls room.
HOLY PHONE CALLS! I think I should just glue it to my ear today! I think everyone at the child care missed my voice or something! 22 phone calls today and counting....
Alright, you bored yet...good because I'm done with this post for now. Thanks for reading!
Side note...just got a call about playing sand volleyball on Sunday nights. Yay, another night of volleyball...SO EXCITED, CAN YOU TELL?!
Back to New Year's...we were actually still in the bar until about 1:30 p.m. WOW! We have just proven that we are not OLD, which by the way I feel as I am lately. I'm going to be freakin' 25 in July. That just can't be possible!
So New Year's Resolution...no it's not to diet, or work out or stop drinking soda. I am kind of excited about this one. I have resolved to just all around be better. I want to be better at my job, better at cleaning, better at money management, better at friendships, better at my relationship with God,better at being a sister/aunt/daughter/ granddaughter, etc. I'm not going to claim that I will be like the most awesome at all of these, but I do feel as though for the last year(s) I have been a little lacking in all of these areas. So, for 2009 (and beyond) I just want to be BETTER! Let me know how I am doing.
So, I got a new bed this Christmas, which would not have been possible without the help of my two very best friends Ryan and Dave. Let's give a shout out!They also helped, okay no...put the whole thing together for me and rearraged my room (as they do best) and hung all of my pictures/paintings. So, to them I owe a huge thank-you! I finally feel like it's a grown up room, instead of a poor/no extra money/right-out-of-college girls room.
HOLY PHONE CALLS! I think I should just glue it to my ear today! I think everyone at the child care missed my voice or something! 22 phone calls today and counting....
Alright, you bored yet...good because I'm done with this post for now. Thanks for reading!
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