Sneeze, Sneeze, Sniffle, Sniffle

Man-o-Man! I feel like a bus came by and hit me smack dab in the middle of the forehead while I was attempting to sleep last night. It has definitely been a rough couple of weeks and I was looking forward to a little repreve from the world of insanity I have been living. However, getting a cold was NOT part of this plan. I guess I have to be sort of thankful that this is the first cold, nitch that, the first sickness I have gotten all season. First or forth, getting sick still sucks! I had a very crazy night/morning on Monday/Tuesday. I got a call from our school's alarm company at 3:30 in the a.m. saying that there was movement detected in the school. So, I get up, get my coat and shoes on and start walking over to school. Then, I get another call from the alarm company saying that there are multiple movements in the school. Okay...so now I'm scared shitless. I go back home to call the pastor and let him know what is going on, he says thank-you you did the right thing and he lets me know that he will meet me there in a few minutes. Alright, so now I head back up to school and pastor calls and says the police contacted him and are doing a search though the school. There seems to be a forced entry. I meet a police officer on my way there (who btw is freakin' hot) and I'm lookin' a freakin' mess...AWESOME! Back to my story...So, the officer states that there seems to be a forced entry on one of the doors on the opposite side of the building. I walk over there and wait for our pastor to arrive. 15 minutes later...................................................................................................................okay, he arrives, we turn off the alarm system and meet the officers in the hallway. They take us to where the apparent forced entry has happened and it seems to me that was not there on my walk through only 4 hours earlier. They get a report from each of us and we stand around waiting and waiting until we finally get to go home at 5:00 a.m. Alright! Sleep time...haha, or not. Like, I could really go to sleep now! So, I get home watch a little tv, get ready super early and head to work. Oh, did I mention I didn't get to sleep until 1:30 a.m.? Oh, I forgot that, sorry! So, work sucks on 2 hours of sleep. I drag all morning and then decide at 1, that I really need a nap. I go home to get a little shut eye and everyone, AND THEIR MOM decides to text me for the next 3 hours! FUCK IT, I guess I am not suppose to sleep! And now just 34 hours later, I feel as a bus has plowed me over. Where does all that snot come from anyways? Alright, there's my sob story. Thanks for listening! GOD BLESS YOU! (or me 86 times today!)

I don't know how to feel...please tell me!

So...I watched "Prayers for Bobby" (I suggest you get a box of tissures before you watch it) and all the while I was watching a conversation ran through my head..." I can not support you if you choose to get married." echoed in my mind. Those exact words said by my mom to my siter. I can not comprehend how close-minded some people can be! I'm actually sick to my stomach thinking about those words. I had such an awesome conversation with my sister about it though. I am so glad that she is happy and realizes it is not her problem, it's my mom, or all those that are too blind and just are not knowledgeable enough about homosexuality. I really do not think I can hadle anymore crying! My heart hurts for those who are not accepted. My hear aches that there are so many people out there like Bobby...like Allison was...that are or would be outcast from their family, friends, jobs and most importantly the church. Do I think being gay is a sin? Absolutely not! What's the sin? Loving someone? Following their heart so that they finally can be happy. Most people only dream for such a life. I know I do! I hope I live to see the day what homosexuals are given the same rights as heterosexuals! I also hope to see the day that my mom says "sorry" for the pain she caused to my sister! But, if for some reason that day never comes...I know that I am glad that Allison is my sister, I'm proud of her and I will support her to the very end!
That's all for now...stay tuned for the next edition of "My mom is a moron" coming soon no doubt!

For you my sister!

You're no better than a racist joke
Or the abortion clinic down the street
You're no better than execution
You're the racist, I wished I'd never meet!
A mother's love is unconditional
But for some reason now it has rules
I'm actually quite discusted
Who did you think you'd fool?
Miss Holy of Holy, Miss Perfect
Puts a rating system on each sin
How many negative for being gay
On your system, only you win
Wait, wait what about murder
Now that's worth more points
How aobut sex before marriage
Or smoking a daily joint?
We all sin, don't you get it
But you don't get to choose
Which things are good sins, which are bad
Now you're going to lose
Not a game of counting points
A much bigger game to play
The game of losing your daughter
Who loses for being gay
Why hate those who only love
Why do you choose to hate
Why will you only support
Your daughter if she's straight
So disappointed I can not sleep
So sad you'll never change your mind
So upset to see my sister
Hurt by someone so blind
I dont think you realize
The capacity of your words
How the hell would you feel
if "I can't support you." Is what you heard?
Not from a friend, or co-worker
Not even a sister or brother
But from the woman who raised you
The one you call your mother.
I can't help but see you
In a different way for now
I see you as a racist
I just keep wondring how
How you can say you believe
How you can think you're right
How you can blame your daughter
And put your sins out of sight
You are a hypocrite
You need to find
You need to love
Before there's no time
You need to support
You must stop the hate
You need to love
Before it's too late
You need to get over it
You need to see
You need to love
And just let it be.....
Just let her be......
JUST LET THEM BE!

I hurt for my daddy-o

No, I really did have a great week, just feeling a little down today. Maybe it's the crappy weather or maybe it's not.
I talked to my dad last night about spending the day with him tomorrow. He sounded excited about the visit, but he did not sound well. Okay, did you follow that? I guess I am just sad that he did not sound well and it's even harder having no clue what he's going through right now. I get scared everytime I get a phone call at an odd time from my mom, thinking for just a few seconds this phone call may be about my dad. I get scared everytime I hang-up the phone with him wondering if that just might be the last time I speak to him. And I'm even more scared that I may have to walk down the isle at my father's funeral knowing I was unable to fulfill his wishes of him walking me down the isle on my wedding day. It kills inside knowing that I just am not able to do that. I hurt for him, but even more I hurt for my future children who will never get the chance to know him.
I'm a Debbie Downer today, I guess. I hate this feeling and I hate more that I don't know how to get rid of it.
So please just take some time and say a little prayer for my "daddy-o". Pray for strength for him and pray that he is able to live happily for the rest of his days.

Maybe I should update more often!

HAPPY 2009 EVERYONE! I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and a very happy New Year! My Christmas break was wonderful. I was able to spend mucho time with my family and hang out with my friends, even with a few that have since college moved out of the state. I also had a fantastic New Years with an eclectic group of friends. We didn't fall asleep at 12:02, we were actually still in the bar believe it or not!

Side note...just got a call about playing sand volleyball on Sunday nights. Yay, another night of volleyball...SO EXCITED, CAN YOU TELL?!

Back to New Year's...we were actually still in the bar until about 1:30 p.m. WOW! We have just proven that we are not OLD, which by the way I feel as I am lately. I'm going to be freakin' 25 in July. That just can't be possible!

So New Year's Resolution...no it's not to diet, or work out or stop drinking soda. I am kind of excited about this one. I have resolved to just all around be better. I want to be better at my job, better at cleaning, better at money management, better at friendships, better at my relationship with God,better at being a sister/aunt/daughter/ granddaughter, etc. I'm not going to claim that I will be like the most awesome at all of these, but I do feel as though for the last year(s) I have been a little lacking in all of these areas. So, for 2009 (and beyond) I just want to be BETTER! Let me know how I am doing.

So, I got a new bed this Christmas, which would not have been possible without the help of my two very best friends Ryan and Dave. Let's give a shout out!They also helped, okay no...put the whole thing together for me and rearraged my room (as they do best) and hung all of my pictures/paintings. So, to them I owe a huge thank-you! I finally feel like it's a grown up room, instead of a poor/no extra money/right-out-of-college girls room.

HOLY PHONE CALLS! I think I should just glue it to my ear today! I think everyone at the child care missed my voice or something! 22 phone calls today and counting....

Alright, you bored yet...good because I'm done with this post for now. Thanks for reading!

You've been waiting your whole lives....

You've asked for it!
I'm hoping for a snow day tomorrow. Now this would be the start of a longer vacation for most, but for me, no. I still have to work next week Monday and Tuesday, rip off. Tis' the life of a child care director. I'm thinking though this is Wisconsin and it will have to been one heck of a snow fall for school to be called off. If there is a late start, nope I still have to be to work at 7:00 am. Who made these rules anyways?

Christmas has come upon me faster than normal this year. I feel like I am not even close to being done, when in previous years I have been done quite early. I know in the end it will all be finished, with not much sleep to be had, but it will be done.

I do always look forward to Christmas time though. I love giving presents to people especially to people who deserve them. It's also great because my friends who have decided to move so far away are coming to visit. I would be more happy if they just moved back to Wisconsin, but for now, I'm just very glad that I will get to see them for the holidays. I'm also ooober excited for New Year's. We have vowed to not fall asleep at 12:02 am this year and acutally stay out in the bars for the turn of year. I feel like I'm going back to my youthfulness. It will be great to celebrate with some pretty great friends.

I'm going to go make some awesome frosting now, for the sugar cookies I plan to make on our potential snow day tomorrow. Here's the start of my blog. Wish me luck!
It's short, but I'll be back. Maybe on my next no sleep night (wait that's every night) See you later than I guess!
Love ya all!